I’m 15 years old and I have received oral sex from my partner three times and I think I… I’ve convinced myself I have diabetes. What we’ve started to realize as the trans community has started sharing different experiences and opening up to non-binary identities is that no one has to have known they were a boy/girl/non-binary from when they were little. I've convinced myself I have hiv. I still feel convinced I have it though. Didn’t get my first STD test until over a year after the encounter in question. It depends. Now i got into relationship with amazing girl and we tried once to have sex and i lost in middle of foreplay, but its also her fault a little bit because she was insecure. You're fine. I so often worry about herpes because I also get cold sores, but at the end of the day, I don't and About Me: Female, 26. I have OCD as well so that played into it a lot. This Month, February 4, I tried a self test kit but it's negative. Anything's possible. I remain pretty healthy with no weight loss, strong appetitive and good energy. on top of this, just because one person is experiencing a “mild” case of an STD (which IMO is not a thing- a positive test is always reason for treatment with STDs) does not mean that once transmitted to a partner that the partner will also experience a mild presentation of the illness. I was 100% convinced I had colon cancer. I keep reading about symptoms and start going Ugh I have had (in my head) every single cancer you've mentioned. Good luck Now to preface I have terrible health anxiety, had a bad cough for like 2 months, got a lung X-ray done which didn’t show anything, and got a mole checked out as well, which I’m waiting for the results of. 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A meta-analysis of three studies exploring the risk from insertive vaginal sex (inserting the penis into the vagina) was estimated to be 0. 8. Had a bit of constipation, and some mild diarrhea. He would have lost his sense of self. I found out that I have herpes type 1 and freaked out as well. I don't think it's very likely. so i went on abt my life. ago. a few weeks ago i was literally convinced i had psychosis (i thought i was experiencing hallucinations, which apparently wasn't the case) but now i laugh thinking about it really. I’m now fairly certain all of that was anxiety. We had intercourse 4 times first time he removed condom ejaculated inside me. Crypto 15 is a rough age. s. To be fair, I also used www. It is possible you could have an STI/STD and show no symptoms. I constantly lay in bed at night and try and notice symptoms until it actually feels like they are occurring. Not necessarily an STD, UTI's can also be caused by irritation and being that you are going there for the first time can be enough. My dad suffers from IBS and Celiac disease. I took the test and started pacing for the Hi I am a 30 F living in the u. I am a (M) 27. Close call with Herpes / Thoughts. My best advice is to forgive yourself and realize that everyone makes mistakes. I have an extreme phobia of STDs to the point that it is consuming my life. She insisted that I lay with her and she then convinced me to have UNPROTECTED intercourse with her. OP, you definitely need to check yourself, but don't over react about it either. I’m dealing with this right now, I’m waiting on an MRI to be sure. This was when i did abroad studies. I don’t know how i even got involved with that. Feeling paranoid about that one night stand? Condom broke? Got some scary blood results back? Need help… Outside of this I can have constipation and at times ribbon stools. He could have also been treated 3 months ago but still spread it to you. Ok so please do not judge me for anything your about to read. This was the second time, the first Chlamydia is often hard to show symptoms in men since only 50% only ever show symptoms. Around 2 months ago I met a guy and we had unprotected sex a few times. 83% in Males and 90% in Females, because of this if you see "5 year survival rate for metastatic - 75%" If you're younger then your actual survival rate would probably be higher then that. Nonetheless, I called him and let him know that he might be at risk and to get it checked out. I was also convinced, that i have an aneurysm, STD's, gut c-word, MS and a shitload of other diseases. instead of asking him his status i did alot of research and scared myself even more. Get that nasty secret off your chest or simply use this as a place to vent. I've been out of work for about 3 weeks because I had pink eye and the flu, the pink eye lasted two weeks and the flu lasted a week. Find a therapist if possible. Then eventually the spots just stayed in a few spots on my legs permanently. When I finally got tested, it came back negative and I just started compulsively worrying about the 'percentage' of getting another STI. However, I did eventually end up taking 3 tests to test for this and none ever came back positive. about 5 months ago. Most of your symptoms are the same i used (or still) have. Are you sure she’s going to be okay? I know I sound like a crazy person so sorry in advance With the symptoms you are having , I think you are so paranoid about havign it that you’re convincing your body that you do have it. I just got my negative results back, and the doctor concluded it’s a bacterial reaction on my skin. I had unprotected sex about 7 weeks ago, got tested by a 4th generation rapid test at the 5 week mark and was negative and now will be retested at 12 weeks out of an abundance of caution. My feet are incredibly calloused and I figured the… I (42m) had an unprotected one night stand 13 years ago, and have now been in a monogamous relationship with my gf (44f) for almost 12 years. Tightness just below my rib cage. Just make sure to always use protection and never engage in sexual activity with someone if you haven't been honest and upfront. Yes, it's insomnia. My anxiety has been crazy lately and I have somehow convinced myself I got chlamydia from the one night stand so long ago and passed it on to my gf. I had pins and needles, stiff muscles, twitching, dizziness, loss of balance. School had completely shattered my confidence in myself. Loss of weight although has coincided with a change in my diet the last few months. r/traa is powerful, but not that powerful. He would have contemplated self-harm at some point. It’s a thick paste that’s easier to apply and keep on mollescum bumps, and if applied 2-3 times a day the bumps are usually gone in a day or two. Sometimes you can feel things you know you shouldn't. Tonight, I'm convinced it's HIV. They'll probably take at least a few days, so your doctor will have to call you with the results. It's at a point where I occasionally beat myself up physically and mentally. a also had a high risk exposure. Yes i know it’s pathetic. Anyone have any advice cause right now I’ve convinced myself of the worst possible I have suspicions that he either is, or has, had an affair. I need help! I'm so scared and so sick and tired of feeling this way. Yesterday I became convinced I had some form of an STD. I’ve now convinced myself that I have thyroid cancer or esophageal cancer because I have a tension in my throat. I have no interest in finding out and I think he probably feels the same way about me. Chances are you're scared and have a little cold or something. after 9-12 days a developed burning on the tongue palate, and on my bottom of my lip and burning also Where penis begin on the right side 1x1 cm area I have never had an outbreak classic outbreak I assume its hsv2 but on the results shows hsv1 positive and hsv2 negative , moreover I have confirmed ghsv1 on top of this, just because one person is experiencing a “mild” case of an STD (which IMO is not a thing- a positive test is always reason for treatment with STDs) does not mean that once transmitted to a partner that the partner will also experience a mild presentation of the illness. I am going to see another urologist, but I was wondering if any of you guys had any idea what this is. Lots of people have HSV2, you just won’t hear about it because people don’t share/don’t get tested for it. com where you can ask a "real" professional a question for a fee and it was a good $15 spent for him to tell me, "Go to the ER NOW. • 8 days ago. I have panic attacks every day, and I get extremely easily irritated with my partner, who also believes I’m just being dramatic. I personally do not use condoms. I’ve thought many times I had that too and just got tested 2 weeks ago and I’m neg for everything . Your brain can trick you in a lot of things. Im not virgin but i need to say i didnt have sex im years. Other. Unusual discharge, severe pelvic pain and hip sensations for over 6 months now. Just the list of symptoms to consider is confusing: poor eye contact, lack of focus, special interests, and social awkwardness are all things NT people can and do experience, as well. (started 4 weeks ago) this can get really bad. Speaking from direct personal experience, the ONLY condoms on the fucking planet that I have had any sexual 'success' with are the My Size 69mm latex. I am 101% sure it is from the sex. Puberty is *uncomfortable and it is not abnormal to feel discomfort. Rashes, redness, burning. I've only… Advertisement I have had all these weird bumps on my feet for about a month or so and thought nothing of it. I read that Epstein-Barr will sometimes cause a false positive for HIV, so I was extra worried. Bowel moments all over the place, looser stools. JukeyKanojo. Had a colonoscopy and it came out perfect, not even a polyp. 6. 5. 36K subscribers in the STD community. Anxiety while wait for a std test result. I actually have an appt with a neurologist next month. I called my husband and told him and he was so hurt. There is a running joke about how you can Google any mild symptoms and find out you have cancer. Can’t remember what it was. I’m seriously scared that if I wait till December when I return to the UK to go to the GP, those couple of months’ wait could be the difference between stage 2 and stage 4, aka life or death. yet in the moment it felt so real. Be prepared for her to be very upset and ask a lot of questions. This is what I was using for the final four months of being infected, and I had an outbreak of 2-4 bumps once a month. Have had 2 very tiny about 4mm lymph nodes under chin for over 4-5 months. my ex cheated on me and the girl told me she had gotten herpes , i went to go get tested but they wouldn’t bc of the false positives and i had no outbreaks (this was a year ago). I'm pretty much a crazy person, I've convinced myself that I was pregnant before, so I'm trying not to take myself too seriously with this. " 2. " Symptoms: Feeling feint/weakness constantly. I got super scared but couldn't find PEP in my i just found out i have herpes. However among 15-30 year olds the odds of survival are greatly higher. That was how long the waitlist was. As for herpes type 1 ,Not that big of the deal,educate yourself about how you can avoid transmitting to someone else and you should be fine . Health. Thought I had breast cancer, ultrasound came out perfect just a couple of simple cyst (SUPER common). I’m a wreck over it and have been thinking I have HIV. As much as we don’t care for each other, I don’t think either of us wants to chance hurting the other by bring up the idea of an open marriage, just in case we’re wrong. Let it go. Went to another one without telling him this and he also said the same…. But first, some back story: This whole saga started about a… Alternatively, being sexually promiscuous doesn't mean you're going to get an STD - you just have a higher risk of it, especially if you're indiscriminate about your partners. 1. I drink 3-4 cups of coffee a day and am in a healthy weight range. I have been to my OB/GYN no less than 15 times within the past year to the point that constant visits and testing are I first discovered I had OCD/health anxiety when I convinced myself I had an STI for a seriously long time. 20 year old female, here. I cannot take this back but have the contact info of my partners. Text Only. The mild body aches or if you have a weird chest feeling it’s anxiety and depression. Now im afraid i have this permanently. Just keep your head up, dress how you want to dress and this discomfort will pass with time. Dont worry its anxiety, take care of yourself, take your meds if you're using any. At the hospital, they STD tested me and whoop, it came back positive for an STI. second time removed condom pushed him off 3 and 4 condom was kept on. I examine every single thing happening to my body. That said, what you're thinking is normal. This. Sometimes I will still have anxiety about all this but I remind myself that I still have to live and move forward. I have a doctor's appointment in two days and the wait, the doubt, the possibilities are tearing me apart. However, it seems way more likely a legitimately trans person might use "I just convinced myself I'm trans" as an excuse to stay in denial. In November of last year I took the covid shot. 2. This happened to me before. I was raised very conservatively and religiously. 20f. If it turns out you have in fact contracted an std you’ll have to tell your girlfriend. I think you’re doing the right thing by getting tested but I would recommend Convinced I have ms. No fluid filled blisters. I convinced myself that there was no way that it could be anything else other than HIV , and I developed every physical symptom of it. Weird. I do think it's very, very easy to convince yourself you're cis, though. I was just crying and my mom was hugging me and she kissed me on the cheek where tears were streaming down my face. I regret this traumatic experience everyday not just because i committed a poor mistake but because it gave me extreme anxiety. "It's just a phase. Shortly after I started having really bad leg pains especially behind my knees. GrafKarpador • 9 yr. I keep telling myself that I'm stupid and that I should stop wasting my parents money in supporting me. Posted by u/anxiety_or_real - 6 votes and 16 comments Persisting symptoms but all tests came back negative, really need some answers *please help*. herpes is always contagious, even when dormant. Venting. It is also possible for sperm and even condoms to kick off a UTI in the situations where you are allergic to latex. I feel like there’s no one way to know for sure you’re trans because no trans person’s journey is the same. I, for some reason, go out of my way to prove that I am stupid. Especially if there's been blood tests. Stomach rumbling a lot. justanswer. I have always gotten bad strep and sore throats my entire life, I’ve had cobblestone throat for a long time and I’m on asthma medicine that causes I have extreme OCD and have convinced myself that I have a mirage of STDS. After days of worrying and convincing myself that I had HIV and totally deserved to have it, I bought an oraquick test. If it was years ago the chances of you having an STD that hasn't progressed to something that you would know about is slim. See the unfiltered… Health Anxiety Surrounding STDs. I’m literally so convinced I have MS, couple days ago the muscle in my arm started pulsating and now it happens in different parts of my body (legs, arms, chest, back) I’m honestly a mess. It’s pretty much just acne for your genitals, no threat to your health and no big deal! A lot of people feel ashamed for the sole reason it’s an std, but you have nothing to feel ashamed about! Jesus, your husband was scared. • 3 yr. When I opened the kit, I was literally shaking and my stomach was full of anxiety. Do not turn to medical transition, it only further fuels the insecurities associated with feeling different. Hello all - I posted last week a small flare up of red bumps, which eventually scabbed up after I slept with somebody unprotected who seemed to have a yeast infection. Trust me, don’t let it get to you. A year into having the virus I had my final outbreak. In early November I (23M) had a drunk hook up with a friend (27F) I met in university. He is unlucky. It taught me that I do not have the yes. The pain didn't go away for months. Appetite loss, loose stool, constipation, mucus in stool, frequent going to the bathroom, yup, that's all anxiety. As long as you're not having black shit, there's I have seen 2 doctors, one of which was a urologist and not one of them has any idea what it is. Cis people do not think about being trans that much, no matter how many trans subreddit they look at. I’m actually in the same boat as you. 6 weeks ago I had protected encounter but I performed oral on her with unknown hsv status. lacybum. She and I were both drinking at my place and subsequently we got really drunk. A routine STD test revealed that I have chlamydia even though I was not symptomatic. You're fine, trust me. I got prescribed tadalafil 5mg from urologist. I tried myself to calm. Drive her to the clinic and pay for whatever testing or medication she might need. I felt so gross. It could be he may have had it from a past relationship but it may also have been you were asymptomatic as well. i found his facebook and instagram and found out that he has a Required 4 pints of blood transfusions and 4 days in hospital. I have had sex with one person recently, a friend, and the encounter was completely protected. I am 18 and I'm still a virgin. I've not been confirmed by blood test, but did have a swab that came back negative, but seriously believe I have genital herpes. Not only can it be confusing, but it's kind of trendy to use If you’ve had chlamydia before, it is possible for dead chlamydia bacteria to exist in your gut, but you’d have to get reinfected by someone who has chlamydia, your body doesn’t reinfect itself. My nparents… i had unprotected sex w a random guy about 5 days ago ( he said he didn’t finish inside) and the next day i woke up, i convinced myself that i have hiv. I felt disgusting. I did have unprotexted oral sex with four different partners but I never thought anything of it until now. I think it was because I hung around some people i didn’t know and they convinced me. Another thing to note is that statistics always trail behind actual values. 04% (equivalent to 1 transmission per 2,500 exposures. when i finally decided to contact him i saw that i was blocked so now im even more scared. We went to my room and I told her that I did not have condoms. Hello, I don't really use Reddit and I'm not much of a writer but I really would like another perspective on this. I convinced myself for a whole month that I had it. I was diagnosed with Herpes Simplex Type 1 (oral herpes) via the serum blood test back in 2005. In my whole January, I don't have proper sleep and I dunno if I'm sleeping. I convinced myself that this is not a HIV infection maybe this is because of health anxiety. In December of 2021 I had unprotected sex with someone I had hooked up with before. Chlamydia is often hard to show symptoms in men since only 50% only ever show symptoms. I don't know who I contracted… It a low low chance to get hiv from a one time encounter. So stupid of me considering I have severe health anxiety constantly. Shaggy3244. I'm 20, convinced my parents to pay for a colonoscopy 3 months ago lol. I have never had anything like this before. Reply reply. Of course I convinced myself I had HIV immediately after all of this. I just did my HPV vaccine and Hepatitis A&B vaccine as well recently. i can’t stop crying , i’m 20 f. I did the same mistake “consulting google”. I then started getting these tingling sensations in spots that went and came. The symptoms don’t really match mine apart from one (Extreme Just get tested to give you peace of mind but im convinced you do NOT have it. I feel horrible pretty much every day I feel like I’m dying even if I’m not worrying about anything and looked it up and google said diabetes like 10 times so I’ve convinced myself that has to be the only reason I feel like this. Hey gang, I need to know I am not alone right now, and could really use some compassion. February to onwards, I think I'm calm and I lessen Google searching. It also didn’t help that I had gotten tonsillitis a few weeks after meeting this person from an uncontrollable strep virus. Anyways these last months have been havoc for me i been having the exact same symptoms you describe. He got over all of that and found the courage to love you. Opiumdreams1. 1M subscribers in the confessions community. But, in my experience, there's a lot of shame carried with having an STD that tends to ease with time, because a lot more people have STDs than most people realize. 80% of those with herpes don't have any symptoms and don't know. I’m going through the same sh*t rn. . Every slight redness I see it gets in my head that it’s an HIV rash, any ache, I’ve convinced myself that my tongue doesn’t look the same and that I have oral thrust, etc. • 10 yr. Yeah, I've met people who have accidentally and incorrectly convinced themselves they're autistic. i met this guy who was a virgin and we have only had sex a Bottom line, you don't have HIV ( you can relax) but get the STD panel and check for everything. . I have to take half a benadryl to avoid latex rash, and they ship from overseas taking a month to arrive, but they work and I can at least fuck halfway decently wearing them. First what felt like a cold turned into a flu, throat pain, achy muscles, nauseous, loss of appetite, painful lymph nodes in neck, very tired and bedridden, sterile discharge (tested for other std multiple times without them ever finding any and sterile discharge was mentioned on the results), hot burning flashes in my back, lasted for weeks Business, Economics, and Finance. She should probably get tested too even though you used a condom. bimolxqrgkmuugmcdilp